At the beginning of the year, one of my goals was to update my blog weekly. Ha! I looked at my posts this year, and I’ve posted thirteen times since January, which isn’t too terribly bad, about twice a month, roughly. But not at all the routine I wanted to stick to.
It’s not that I don’t want to write. I want to write more than anything. My issues are twofold:
- I’m critical of what I write, but shouldn’t I be? It has to be good. Interesting, funny, helpful. Kind of like social media status updates. If I don’t want to hear about what someone had for dinner or that they finished all their laundry, then you can bet I won’t share a boring blog post of my own.
- I find it difficult to allow myself the time. Just like reading. I have stacks of books I want to read, finish reading and a list of more I want to buy. I have a hard time allowing myself the time to work on what I love, writing, reading, photography, because there are ALWAYS “more important things to do”. Like house cleaning (endless list even though there are just two of us) and volunteer work that I can’t seem to stop myself from signing up for.
My favorite author, Stephen King, wrote in his book, On Writing, that to be a good writer you must do two things: write a lot and read a lot. Exactly the two things I’m finding I must force myself to make time for. Sigh.
Again, it’s not that I don’t want to. I’m DYING to. I want so badly to create, to write stories that reach people, stories they enjoy, that they relate to. Create awesome photographs. I need to break through the guilt and allow myself the time to do it.
The same goes for photography. Though it may not seem like it, it really is my first love. It clears my mind like a long motorcycle ride, strengthens creativity and again produces that awesome feeling of accomplishment when I return home with an SD card full of photos, hoping that some of them turned out awesome, or could be awesome.
But, are they awesome enough? The last thing I want to do is end up here.
So, this is what’s been up lately, if you follow my blog. How about you? Do you find yourself stuck, unable to create and it drives you crazy? Do you face similar blocks? Would love to hear about how you manage them.